Z is for Zsadist

"I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came... and I was awakened.- Lover Awakened, p.424

Stolen as an infant, enslaved, raped, beaten, gang raped, beaten and raped some more for a couple hundred years before being horribly mutilated in the course of his rescue and reunion with his brother, Zsadist has a paralyzing fear of sexuality as a result of his time being used a sex slave. Oh, and his parents are dead.

He is repeatedly described as being "enormous" below the belt or otherwise regarded by others with a sense of envy and/or awe. Zsadist initially believes he is defiled forever, to the point of not wanting to touch his daughter because she'll "get it on her."

Lover Awakened: Zsadist's Story

A former blood slave, the vampire Zsadist still bears the scars from a past filled with suffering and humiliation. Renowned for his unquenchable fury and sinister deeds, he is a savage feared by humans and vampires alike. Anger is his only companion, and terror is his only passion—until he rescues a beautiful aristocrat from the evil Lessening Society.

Bella is instantly entranced by the seething power Zsadist possesses. But even as their desire for one another begins to overtake them both, Zsadist’s thirst for vengeance against Bella’s tormentors drives him to the brink of madness. Now, Bella must help her lover overcome the wounds of his tortured past, and find a future with her…